Oh, not much, you?

Posted under convert, tasawwuf by rahma

It never fails.  Whether I’m on the phone with my mom, emailing with my sister or catching up with an old friend, I’m inevitably asked what’s up, what’s new?  And my answer is, inevitably, oh, not much, you?

It’s not that I lead a borning existance (ok, well, maybe I do).  More accurately, it’s not that I’m not up to anything, nor that nothing is new.  It’s just that I can’t talk about it with my family and childhood friends.

I’m walking down a spiritual path.  I’m working to impliment the sharia in my life.  I’m trying to get closer to God, so that He becomes my hearing with which I hear, my sight with which I see, my hand with which I seize and my foot with which I walk.

Um, yeah, they’ll understand that, riiiiight.

I wish I could share this journey with them.  I wish there was some way I could convey the joy I’ve finally found in bowing to my Lord in salat, or the peace of heart I have in remembering Him.

*sigh*